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dreams are but dreams. they come and go. and most never make it to be our realities. we can imagine and see what we want in our lives.
how they should be. what seems to be.
but then again they'll only remain vivid memories of a thought once viewed.
now gone.
we can close our eyes to return.
but as we all know closing our eyes.
just makes us blind of the real place we're really trying to hide from.

-Bernard Rodriguez

1. I feel like I have a not only lost a friend but a sister. Someone that was always close to me and the days we chilled felt endless. I haven't seen her for over a month. No words have been said between the two of us except a few once in the end of August. I feel that we keep drifting, it hurts sometimes. I miss my mona.

2. Well Im a bandless gentleman looking in search of a new band. I must say though the time with Sensara was the time of my life. I felt at home. Writing, Recording, Playing shows. I met new friends out of joining this group of fine gentleman and regained old friendships from the past. (yall know who you are). I learned and had the best memories with these lads. So now i continue, and wish my two old band mates Pat and Willie in their future endeavors. As for me Josh and Emory, it could be the start of something new. But in conclusion to this, I thank all of those who came and supported the band that was Sensara. Thank you.

3. My friends have been the greatest pieces in my life that i cherish so much. They keep me sane and together. Without them life wouldn't be what it's meant out to be, our silly antics and great memories continue to flash with great light and I do believe the memories will grow and grow . I love each and everyone of them to death and mean it. Through thick and thin they'll remain the biggest part in my life. <3

4. Over the past year I have been growing more and more, and learning more about myself. I learned that I need to stop dwelling on the negatives, and reflect more on the positive outcomes. I have stopped giving a shit if individuals like me or not. I was not brought and raised in this world to impress to stress about pulling in ever person into my life. I was brought in this world to be myself, create, and love. I have become stronger within myself. I am me. If you can't accept that, thats fine.

5. My family, Marvin, Carla, Vanna Rodriguez. This particular group of people have been a big role in my life. My father taught me to be the gentleman to be the kind and respectful person I am today. My mother taught me to be strong, to not let anyone get to me, to not fall for traps, to be smart, to be caring, to be myself. My sister has taught me to be a better person, and how to be a big brother. Though they may drive me to the brink of insanity sometimes. I love all 3 of them. No matter where I am, what I do, and who I become they'll remain in my mind and heart.

6. It's only a matter of time, I am 16 turning 17 in December. A Jr in Highschool soon to be a senior. Life is moving quickly, before i know it all the people i see today are most likely going to disappear from my life. But I hope the ones that mean the most to me don't. Soon I'll be leaving this nest and going out into the world. Soon to become another guy trying to survive this fucked up world. But before that moment comes. I am gonna enjoy these 2 remaining years.

[there will be more added when i think about it]